hmmmmmmmmm......... ummmmmmmmmm

as much as i hate the campus what i hate even more is bidding it goodbye unceremoniously
yes thats what happened when the campus was vacated due to outbreak of swine flu
we were given one day to leave the campus and go home
ah i hated going home without ample preparation
i hated being pushed into a routine which i didn't look forward to
and i hate that because of this one week suspended classes i would have to forgo my diwali holidays which is the highlight of the year in my life
but this episode has taught me one thing that nothing is definite in this life everything can change with a blink of the eye
this change was needed but not at such an early hour but lets see what else do we have to face as a punishment for being ill as if illness was not a punishment in itself

nostalgia............

i have seen an interesting phenomenon about myself , i always have happy memories about places i have left although I must have my fair share of ups and downs in that place
take for example banasthali 3 years i was there in that place making my mom dad miserable but and wanting to leave the place but now all i can remember is the laughs i had then
today in the insurance class something the teacher said , started a train of thoughts which took me back to drinking juice in sun (very hot sun) .
i don't usually spend my classes reliving the past but the feeling just got to me and away i went down the memory lane
by the time class got over i was smiling at the air ..............
but i suppose i needed this feeling as it just rejuvenated me
i just realised there was something very positive in the atmosphere .......
so till the next time.......

lazy and perfectionist
hmm can there be paradoxes in human nature ? yes i am the living example of such a paradox
i know iam very lazy yet i know that i want to be perfect in anything and everything but just because i am lazy i don't do it
so what does that means ..................
am i lazy or am i a perfectionist or am i a lazy perfectionist
most perfectionists are hard workers
so maybe iam just lazy?
hmm paradoxes
well lets see whether i'll be able to handle such paradoxes or not in my own self
life will remain forever a journey towards self discovery......................
today in a class i was jolted to the earth by a remark made casually by a teacher
what motivates a soldier to fight for his country and die for it
this question indeed sets my mind thinking (it hardly wants to do anything strenuous anymore)
is it patriotism or is it because of traditions or something else
what drives a human to give up his life for his country?
i have never been touch with soldiers and now i have this urge to read and know about them
hmmmm lets see when i get this opportunity