ah ha what a line well but its true i don't know about others but i am often in a phase when i find life highly unbearable when i see that life is so unfair that there is no point moving forward , there are more heart breaks that a person can see feel or bear. and seemingly there is no end to it, how much more u can give of yourself there comes a point of no return.i have already crossed the point of no return once before and that was a traumatic experience which has scarred me for life and now i am fast approaching another one and each day is more painful than the other...... the best thing about it is that you can't share it with anyone has i don't think any body can imagine what i am actually going through so u have to maintain the outer facade of being happy . how can i say how unfair is God yes he is ... what did i ask that he couldn't give and he knew i needed it . then also it has been not given . what does a person do when she has been cursed seven and a half year of her life and each day has been more onerous than the last.each day seems like a decade and i age at the same pace too . so seeing this that i am around 7000 years, no wonder i don't feel like living anymore
people say that life returns to you what you have given to it in my case its just vice a verse with me because whatever i give i get the opposite , i give respect and receive humiliation, i give smile and get frowns and scoldings , i give justice and all i receive is unfairness. and there is a limit to what i can actually take and see . i am sick of it GOD and i want to leave as soon as possible . What did i didn't do what was i lacking , what did i ask that it became almost impossible to give , was i wrong in trusting God yes thats the main point you see you can't trust God because he went to sleep he is sleeping and no amount of prayers is going to reach him and nothing is going to change because he is fast asleep . and yes even if he is awake he wouldn't do a thing because his hands are tied you see they only work for few people when he sees them in trouble he can take some initiative and all the rest can go to hell oops sorry nope all the rest can just "tako muh" i know i sound very bitter but i have every reason and logic to be as bitter i am not taking it all out now or else i would have been breaking a few things and Gods knows what will be the first thing i'll break.
why does everything has to go against me why for once in my life can't i get what i want and i know my wants are very legal . i have never asked for riches , or a miracle all i want is justice and fairness , all i want is my hard works return and this is something which everyone gets but me . if i get one paise for every time i have not received what i actually deserved by God by now i would be a millionaire twice over. and the second one will be in these two last year a
and today i make one promise to myself that once i get out of this place i choose never to return .i choose to leave the negativity of this place i choose to leave the shallowness around me i choose to leave the deceitfulness which has encircled me
i choose freedom from the utter baselessness and selfishness and this cursed place will be wiped out of my universe of existence and if ever i'll get a chance i would wipe out the memory of this place forever from my mind
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
BOOKS I love
There are few books in which i always read and reread again. its something which always makes me feel happy
"TO KILL A MOCKING BIRD"
WRITTEN in by Harper LEE it is a story of Scout and Jem a brother and sister who live with their lawyer father in AMERICA. its a story of how Scout sees the world a world from the eyes of a little girl from 6-10 years .a view of the world which most people forget when we grow up
its poignant reminder of how to see the world the right way, its about seeing the others point of view in a very selfish world
"HARRY POTTER -5TH 6TH AND THE LAST BOOK"
The whole series is wonderful but the last 3 books are exceptional thats because the way J K Rowling has described the emotions of Harry when he first looses Sirus his god father and then Dumbledore and then looses faith in his benefactor and yet he believes enough to go ahead , the other thing which touched my heart was the friendship between Ron and Harry and Hermione so pure and so very lasting a thing which is very rare in this world.
"THE ALCHEMIST"
Written by Paul Coleho a fable about achieving your dreams , its about what man can do if he just believes in himself and his dreams , a story about courage which just two things "whenever u want something desperately the whole universe conspires to give it to you" and the second thing we learn is the courage to follow your dreams and to really believe in the power of dreams.
"THE WEDDING"
A beautiful love story of a married couple its about how love can endure the years of harsh living and yet retain the tenderness which was in the beginning.Written simply by Nicholas Spark an endearing story
"THE LAST SONG"
Written by Nicholas Spark this book explores the relationship between a estranged father and his children, a deep but light book which tells how a relationship changes with time and yet always keeps its deeper meaning
"ICON"
Written by Fredrick Forsyth a fast paced thriller which spans 2 points of time . a war thriller which shows how a sharp mind can beat all odds how a well planned strategy and a utmost preparation can change the whole course of a nation's future and how destiny is can change the most difficult man
"AS THE CROW FLIES"
Written by Jeffery Archer a book which tells how a mans iron will can take him to the pinnacle of success . the title suggests that the crow flies from morning to evening but its only one focussed
"STRONG MEDICINE"
Written by Arthur Hailey a book about the pharmaceutical industries a book about the wrong and right decisions and how the people in power when taking these decisions can affect lives of million of people
"ACTS OF FAITH"
Written by Erich Sehgal"
a book about how each person interprets religion in his or her own way and yet each one reaches the same decision the love is the end point of all
2-3 hindi books which i like
"Chaudah Phere"
Written by renowed author Shivani a story of a rich and beautiful girl who was won over by pure love and not riches and beauty
"YughandhaR"
Written by Shivaji Sawant - this book tells the story of shri krishna in terms of people who were around him there are separate narrative about krishna from arjun , draupadi , rukmini, and from krishna himself . the different thing about this book is that it treats krishna as a human being with a very sharp mind
thats all for now in my next post i'll try to list down few books in non fiction category
"TO KILL A MOCKING BIRD"
WRITTEN in by Harper LEE it is a story of Scout and Jem a brother and sister who live with their lawyer father in AMERICA. its a story of how Scout sees the world a world from the eyes of a little girl from 6-10 years .a view of the world which most people forget when we grow up
its poignant reminder of how to see the world the right way, its about seeing the others point of view in a very selfish world
"HARRY POTTER -5TH 6TH AND THE LAST BOOK"
The whole series is wonderful but the last 3 books are exceptional thats because the way J K Rowling has described the emotions of Harry when he first looses Sirus his god father and then Dumbledore and then looses faith in his benefactor and yet he believes enough to go ahead , the other thing which touched my heart was the friendship between Ron and Harry and Hermione so pure and so very lasting a thing which is very rare in this world.
"THE ALCHEMIST"
Written by Paul Coleho a fable about achieving your dreams , its about what man can do if he just believes in himself and his dreams , a story about courage which just two things "whenever u want something desperately the whole universe conspires to give it to you" and the second thing we learn is the courage to follow your dreams and to really believe in the power of dreams.
"THE WEDDING"
A beautiful love story of a married couple its about how love can endure the years of harsh living and yet retain the tenderness which was in the beginning.Written simply by Nicholas Spark an endearing story
"THE LAST SONG"
Written by Nicholas Spark this book explores the relationship between a estranged father and his children, a deep but light book which tells how a relationship changes with time and yet always keeps its deeper meaning
"ICON"
Written by Fredrick Forsyth a fast paced thriller which spans 2 points of time . a war thriller which shows how a sharp mind can beat all odds how a well planned strategy and a utmost preparation can change the whole course of a nation's future and how destiny is can change the most difficult man
"AS THE CROW FLIES"
Written by Jeffery Archer a book which tells how a mans iron will can take him to the pinnacle of success . the title suggests that the crow flies from morning to evening but its only one focussed
"STRONG MEDICINE"
Written by Arthur Hailey a book about the pharmaceutical industries a book about the wrong and right decisions and how the people in power when taking these decisions can affect lives of million of people
"ACTS OF FAITH"
Written by Erich Sehgal"
a book about how each person interprets religion in his or her own way and yet each one reaches the same decision the love is the end point of all
2-3 hindi books which i like
"Chaudah Phere"
Written by renowed author Shivani a story of a rich and beautiful girl who was won over by pure love and not riches and beauty
"YughandhaR"
Written by Shivaji Sawant - this book tells the story of shri krishna in terms of people who were around him there are separate narrative about krishna from arjun , draupadi , rukmini, and from krishna himself . the different thing about this book is that it treats krishna as a human being with a very sharp mind
thats all for now in my next post i'll try to list down few books in non fiction category
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
LOVE...........
love is a word which i believe encompasses all the feelings possible in this world whether is hatred ,anger, sadness ,and etc . so whats new ,I have been in close touch with people in love and have observed them minutely and because i am such a nit wit i observe more than others ......... and yes i have seen and felt a lot. what i now tell is so difficult to word that is the hurt of love ....... and yet as i want to tell and write all sorts of thing , i can't continue on this note
so whats new just been to bangalore and back and yes i wanted always to tell the experience i had when i first went to pizza hut
well first of all let me tell you i am a foodie i love good food and yes with it a good ambiance is like sone pe suhaga and at pizza hut i get all the food the ambiance and the quality
i went to my first pizza hut at connought place New Delhi i went their with my brother for lunch as a treat because he had landed a job with IBM well anyways its was my initiation with the brand called PIZZA HUT . I actually don't remember what i had but i just remember that i an dmy bro had a serious talk and yet i was smiling the whole while ... well as i am located in a tiny town in karnatka for last two years so as such i had not many chances to visit pizza hut again but let me tell u whenever i go back hone to delhi by some way or the other i make my way back to pizza hut and yes i have also initiated my mum into this great place and she just loves the garlic bread..........so any ways have just been to Bangalore and went to pizza hut and had fun ........ this time i went with two close friends and let me tell u we were tooo busy eating our hearts out rather than talking .so just shows i may have added two ore people into the pizza eating cult
so whats new just been to bangalore and back and yes i wanted always to tell the experience i had when i first went to pizza hut
well first of all let me tell you i am a foodie i love good food and yes with it a good ambiance is like sone pe suhaga and at pizza hut i get all the food the ambiance and the quality
i went to my first pizza hut at connought place New Delhi i went their with my brother for lunch as a treat because he had landed a job with IBM well anyways its was my initiation with the brand called PIZZA HUT . I actually don't remember what i had but i just remember that i an dmy bro had a serious talk and yet i was smiling the whole while ... well as i am located in a tiny town in karnatka for last two years so as such i had not many chances to visit pizza hut again but let me tell u whenever i go back hone to delhi by some way or the other i make my way back to pizza hut and yes i have also initiated my mum into this great place and she just loves the garlic bread..........so any ways have just been to Bangalore and went to pizza hut and had fun ........ this time i went with two close friends and let me tell u we were tooo busy eating our hearts out rather than talking .so just shows i may have added two ore people into the pizza eating cult
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