i don't know how a perfectly good day can turn against you!!!!!!!!!!!! it begins with a bang and then ends in ahhh why? thats because life has a way of giving you speed breakers when you least expect it and the speed breakers are such that they leave you feeling disoriented for hours at a stretch .......... its only when u wake and are trying to pick up the pieces to go back to normal life that u realise that in your disorientation u have lost the pieces..............so how do we deal with the missing pieces
i think that every day in my life is a mystery because each day i try to gather and make sense but in the end i feel i am missing the big picture so whats this puzzle .
at the end i feel that its always better to travel alone because if u start traveling in groups u have to bow to the wishes of majority which i think that its stupid when u have Ur decisions to make and know yourself better so its more good to have a single journey
and i don't believe that i'll be lonely because i have company of myself which is more than enough

And as far as I concerned I am better off alone because somehow my sense of direction of thoughts doesn't match with people around me whether they are friends or foes.

i don't know about others but i have this grave fear of being dependent upon others because i feel that i should not be asking help and i am so paranoid about asking help that i rather remain in hell than ask for help..........but is this a folly i don't think so because i feel that taking someone's help however close i may be to that person just makes me in gratitude of the person and its highly imperative that i return or finish that debt of gratitude
in mahabharta karan had to side with evil only because he was under the debt of duryodhana and i would never want to be in such a situation so i would rather travel alone than incurring debts of my friends which would only bind me more to them
i know my words also show that iam being afraid of any kind binding relation but thats the way i am
i want people to be with me because they want it not because they have to and the same reasoning goes for me
i know my this thought of reasoning wouldn't go well with family because there they are there but then doesn't every one in family have preferences ..
so whta do we make of them
on this note i leave because i need to go